music: kings of Leon - On Call
my mum says i've always had a facination with fire...at everybirthday, after the candles are blown and the song has been sung, i wouldn't eat the cake. instead i'd nick all the candles and bring them outside or in the garden, and start playing.
when i think about it, i get more and more afraid that that facination COULD take my life....and its even moredisturbing to realise that i still do it. fire. i cant help it (:
i got up early this morning. and what was wierd was that after having a shower and that, it hit me. i'm not gonna be in school anymore. its kinda late that i've realised but whatever. anyway, it kinda made me feel sad to go. i've always said that i'll feel sad because it'll be different but not to the extent that i would really be upset.... however....now that i think abt it, the ppl i've know so long and the ppl who've known me for so long, might not be there anymore. ppl wouldn't know me the way they do now. all my likings, dislikes, habbits both good and bad, what i fnid annoynig, how i annoy them.....its gonna be different. i know i'm a reterd for only just thinking about it now. but nonetheless, i'm gonna miss them all (:
lilian says mcr are coming. 11th december i think. too bad i'm not a fan.
the school won the perfect10 contest. so they'll be there tuesday.
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