This Is Not A Ploy To Distract You From Daily Mundane Tasks.

music: superfreak - rick james
emergency - paramore
phrase that plays - TAI
neighbors - TAI

i've realised that theres this really horribl bit of me that just has to do the opposite of what i'm told. not in a direct way. but in a really complicated way. ican explain...but i don't want to. not here.
say i ask you,'shld i eat?'
if you say yes. then i wont.
but if you say no. then i will. i don't know how many people have noticed this. but it happens with everything. its really annoying. its ike i have to tell myself to do something. not someone else. if they tell me to do smthing, i'll go against it.
i was doing math just now. then i went to the toilet . saw mom. talked. and she told me
'oh you have to do at least(insert hrs here) of work a day from now on.'

and that just really put me off....
man...
i want to do my work. i need to. plus i had a little chat with mr tan t'day. basiccally, if i leave out the bad parts, what he said was smthing like he believes that i can do it (: ...........well, he didn't say that... but i think inside he does think it. or at least thats what i'd like to think.